6:57 p.m., 2005-03-21
Sometimes I just don't know where to begin. The things that weigh most heavily on my mind right now are things not properly discussed with the world at large. Fortunately, I have an ally with whom I can face these troubling facts and realities, but having someone to weather the storm with can't be everything.
He has been really good to me in the ways I have needed it though, and he's told me when I haven't been in the right. That's an honorable characteristic, because it isn't necesaarily what I wanted to hear. Who ever wants to hear they were wrong?
But, for the most part, things are unresolved. I am also in limbo with colleges still because nobody is obligated to make any decisions until mid to late April. So I sit here on this fence and hope for the best.
My week in Arizona is approaching quickly, and I am very happy to be getting away from it all for a while. It will be nice to be away from school and work responsibilities, even if Ryan will have his own things going on. It's just nice to be together, especially lately.
We don't have the relationship we used to have. I feel like when we were in high school we had love and happiness and fun but that it's so much cooler to have those things now because we understand each other so intimately. We understand without words, sometimes without gesture or expression. We just understand.
One morning Ryan picked me up from work at 6am and we went to breakfast at Bab's Diner. Then we strolled along the waterfront with our arms around each other. We stopped and sat to pet a kitty and talked about our house. We tried to pet a wayward dog, and fretted together over its fate once it left. We enjoyed the early hours of the morning together, and it was the perfect morning in a very awesome week.
