5:13 p.m., 2004-11-16
Well...so...Things are still pretty good in general, although I found myself in a bit of a funk yesterday evening. It made Ryan get kind of weird with me because I wasn't really into conversation, but when I really tried to be more focused he just wanted to go. So then I felt kind of bad...but I slept it off, no big deal. I could tell he was weirded out though, so I told him I'd wait for him to be ready to talk and call me.
I left a nice away message up for him all day, but there's been no sign of him and now I'm sort of discouraged. It seems like when we have a bad conversation he just avoids talking to me for a period, and I'm the sort of person that would rather talk about it right after and move on. But now I'm sort of discouraged as I said, because he..isn't like that. I guess I know this, but it's still a little downer. I had nice things to say to him, because whenever it's foggy I get sentimental.
I miss the fog, and when it comes I love it that we go out and get hot chocolate and enjoy it together. When he isn't here and I have to do it on my own it makes me miss him and all of our nice rituals. We had our second (through fiftieth :oP) kiss on a foggy evening in January. It was so nice. It was 2 years, 10 months and...hrm...sevenish days ago, and I still smile when I think of it. Now if only he'd talk to me so I could tell him the nice things I have to say before I forget them. We shall see.
